Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Jumping off the Deep End

Today Jonathan and I jumped off the deep end at church.
We have been a part of a wonderful Small Group at church for years and we have loved it. For the past few months we have been in a church funk, me especially. I have, in fact, not cared to go to church, class, or even small group and that's not like me. I really just wanted to leave our church altoghter, and you might ask why and really couldn't tell you many specific reasons. I just felt unhappy. After some prayer and lots of discussion between Jonathan and me we decided maybe we needed to get into a Bible Study. You see, our Small Group committed to be in charge of Bible Hour, a class for small children so that their parents can enjoy Small Group time without the distraction of children. It's a great service our church provides. When we committed I felt sad, but everyone else went along with it, so we did too. I knew I was going to miss prayer requests, fellowship and study with friends. But the more we thought and talked about it the more we realized we really needed to have time studying the Word with other people like us.

You know when I type it out it sounds so logical but if you know me you know I am very concerned about what people think of me. I don't want anyone to think bad of me or Jonathan or talk about us because of our choice. And it is JUST visiting, we aren't going to make any sort of commitment yet. Jonathan is a good balance he doesn't care at all about what others think he just wants what is best for our family.

I think what I am most concerned about is losing the friends we have made the past few years and ones we've made very recently. Every time our Small Group has split we've lost good friends, not because of hard feelings but just because we drifted apart, and it has always made me sad. I hope that doesn't happen if we decide to go to another group. I hope we haven't made a bad choice. Mostly I hope God will point the way.

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Sweetest Thing

Listening to your sleeping child's heart beating. I don't think much about everyday tick-tocking of life but when I went in to check on Laine and Bowen after they fell asleep I was inclined to lay my head on their little chests and listen in. It's almost like you're hearing a secret, a whisper that tell you everything is alright. I remember going to the Doctor every month for my check-ups and no matter how many times I heard it, the sound of that little baby's heartbeat almost took my breath away. Tonight was no different. I has the realization that I was hearing a miracle of healthiness and vitality was so awesome that I had to stop right then and thank God that I have two healthy, wonderfully whole children.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

Random Thoughts for Sunday

1. Laine is going to a B day party in a few minutes and I hope it's a drop off and come back when it's over party because I really don't want to hang out with b day girls mom.

2. I know, number 1 sounds bad, but if you knew her...just think 32 year old who still thinks she's a cheerleader and has kids who can do NO wrong, aaack.

3. Bowen is definitely 2.

4. He is also cute, it's a good thing.

5. Is it just me or are little girl clothes for this fall looking like a 12 year old should be wearing them?

6. I hope Halloween is cool or Bowen is going to internally combust in his Monkey costume.

7. I'm excited about Homecoming and baby festivities this weekend.

8. I'm reading Blue Like Jazz, it's really great, thanks Ryan for loaning it to me.

9. I called the police on Saturday morning because our neighbor's dog barked from 4:30-7:00. I'm going to call every time they bark for an extended period now.

10. Shauna, I still need to know what you use on your eyes that makes them so bright!

Friday, October 12, 2007

OK, I HEARD you already!

SO I went to the ENT yesterday afternoon and it was SO COOL!

As soon as the Doctor looked in my ear he realized it was totally wax. So we were ushered into a room where they perform "procedures". He told me he was going to suction the wax out of my ear. The suctioner was about as thick as a big needle and he put a metal cone in my ear and sucked everything out. He showed me each time he got something out and told me exactly what it was. SO he got out some wax and some dead skin, and with my gross stuff is really cool mindset, it was really interesting. All I can say is that OTC stuff would have never gotten all the crap out of my ear. You know, the Doctor never said that I shouldn't have used the removal kit. I 'm guessing since he didn't say it was bad, that those things are OK.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Huh? What'd you say?

When I went to the Allergist a couple of weeks ago he told me I had some wax buildup in my left ear and I could get an OTC wax remover and get it out. Well, I didn't do it. Then I decided it might be worth a try, so while I was at Wal- Mart the other day I bought one of the kits. The directions say to use it twice a day and let the drops sit in your ear. After 4 days use the convenient syringe and some water to gently wash out the remaining wax. First, this was mildly exciting to me because I really secretly like picking things like my nose, zits, dry skin etc..so the thought of getting to pick something out of my ear was new! and exciting! Second, I'm always hoping for that one "miracle" product that will take away a myriad of problems on one swoop, I'm such a dummy. So the first two uses were successful, then the second night of use when I went to tip my head the other direction to get the drops to come out they didn't budge. I went ahead and went to bed laying on my side so that maybe it would drain out during the night. I woke up about 5 AM with an amazing pain in my ear and the feeling that I had gone swimming in my sleep and didn't get the water out of my left ear. I drank my morning Diet Coke and my ear hurt worse when I burped, then I might have blown my nose and I thought my eardrum might pop. SO, needless to say I have an appointment with my ENT tomorrow to see what is going on in my ear, the pain has gotten better but I still feel like I'm listening through cotton.

A few weeks ago we were in Abilene for a visit. We went to Chic-fil-a for lunch and as I was walking into the play area to get the kids I saw someone I recognized. The funny part is I had only seen her and her kids on her blog! I met Mary Beth in real life, it was so neat to see someone whose life I check up on periodically. She was so cute and so were her kids.

Friday, October 05, 2007

Monkey Boy

He's just so cute it makes me laugh! Of course, after mom and I picked this costume out because Bowen has been talking about being a monkey all he says now is: I want be a pirate, arrgh! Well, too bad for him because his costume isn't returnable because of it's "collectible" nature. So Monkey he'll be. At least he's cute.