When your plate is too full

I haven't blogged in a long time and to tell the truth, I thought I was done with blogging for good. My life has consisted of work, starting grad school, doctors appointments, headaches, a husband who has had to increase his travel for work (this is not a husband bash,just a fact), and dealing with life with a chronic condition.

In March my life was transformed, I saw things through a new set of eyes and a new heart. I spent more time alone with God in 5 days than I had in my whole life and it was life changing. I will never be the same. I forgave, I cried, I learned just how much our Father loves ME! I came home and I was knocked on my knees and I have been there ever since.

I came home to a 12 day headache that only subsided after three trips to the doctor and 4 injections, those were some of the worst days I have ever had. My headaches only continued after that, and I was prescribed a medication that helped my headaches but made me feel sluggish and depressed.

I was so tired of fitting the puzzle pieces together, increase this medicine, take this one away, be a single mom, be a student, be a teacher, wife, friend, we are budding leaders at our church. I was overwhelmed and full and empty at the same time. I was a perfect target for Satan to attack me and he did, he attacked my marriage, my self-esteem, my friends. After I was back on my feet and the sad empty feeling was still there, I called my doctor, crying, you get an appointment real quick AND on a Saturday morning if you call and cry about being depressed. Kind of funny, kind of not.

So during that appointment we talked a long time about what was going on in my life and I told her all the things above and she said she was going to tell me something I was going to hate. I had no idea what she was going to say. Every single person I have told this story to has known the ending but me. She told me I needed to quit grad school. Bam. That did sting, confirmation that you really can't do everything. Friends, you can't do it all. I am proof, I fell apart when I tried, now not everyone is dealing with chronic pain but it made me realize how much women try to do and how much we suffer from it, our bodies, our minds, our families. I needed to slow down and it took a Medical professional to make me realize it.

Where is God in all this? Right here beside me. On the days I don't want to get out of bed, He lifts my head. When my prayers are groans, he hears the words in them. He knows what I need. When I need to be me for my kids He gives me the strength to be that all day and then fall into bed and rest. I am not feeling better yet after taking my medication for three weeks. I have faith that I will be me again.

The man I married...

The man I married got off a bus yesterday and I didn't recognize him. Because God is now the true owner of his heart, he has been redeemed! It is such an intimate thing for our family that I won't talk about it anymore here but I encourage you to seek out Fellowship of the Sword and have your husband, father, brother, father in law go on a Quest. I am going to seek the heart of God on a Heart Quest very soon, sooner than I ever expected after I saw Jonathan last night.

I begin Graduate school today, I am filled with doubt and fear. I have had many headaches. they are getting worse. Please pray for me.

A few of my favorite things!

First, let me just say as a person gets older priming the skin becomes a necessary step if you don't want your make up to settle in those weird little lines on your face! What are those things anyway? I found a great primer for the face and lips at MAC, the lip primer is great I was sceptical at first but let me tell y'all lipstick does not stay on these lips and now my gloss lasts for LOTS longer!

Here is the necklace Jonathan got me from The Vintage Pearl, love it!

Laine was nominated as Citizen of the six weeks by her teacher! We are SO proud of her, what is learning to read, write and do math if learning to be a good citizen isn't a big part of what you are about! I am glad to work and have my kids go to a school where that is front and center.

Snapware! These things keep your dry goods fresh! Cereal (as modeled by Trix) Goldfish, anything! They are awesome! I got mine at Costco. Greatness forever.

Holly Jolly!

Merry Christmas!


Aren't they all so cute? And happy? And cute? Come on Lawson, it's not that bad, right?!

Finally a picture of my new hairdo! And a picture of my cute husband to go with it.

We had so much fun hanging out with the San Angelo group on Christmas Eve. I even got to make a trip to SA earlier in the week to visit it was great fun! I love having such a wonderful family!

My favorite people on Christmas Day! We had a great time in Abilene, played a fun game, learned that my Dad is a fantastic artist, just ask him, and most of all enjoyed each others company!

Tonight we are having Christmas with the Williams' family, so there are gifts under the tree again and anticipation is in the air and tamales and beans are waiting to be eaten!

It's the most wonderful time of the yeeeear...

1. I cut my hair really, really short. Sorry I don't have a picture right now. At least I am blogging.

2. Right now if you say "hey Bowen" he looks at you and winks. It's super cute!

3. I signed up for my first Master's degree class, that means I really have to go back, no jokes.

4. Love having Christmas in our new house!

5. Jonathan's family is coming to Fort Worth to have Christmas, it's going to be awesome! We are blessed to have such wonderful families that we enjoy spending time with.

6. I have been in San Angelo and I am now in Abilene, it has been the perfect way to get in the Christmas spirit!

7. I am so happy to be giving my gifts in two days! I love giving presents, it's way better that getting!

My New Year's Resolution ( and I rarely make them) is to blog more this year!

My cup runneth over...

I am blessed beyond belief this Thanksgiving,

families that love me

a wonderful husband

great children

a fun job

super friends

and a faithful God

what more could a girl ask for?

Ugh

I am typing this from my bed
I have a girls day today but I feel crappy, I need to get my act together.
Bladder infections suck.


Moving on... I started a runners club at my school. I have 90! children signed up it's great and it's a good thing I have a great friend to help me or it would be crazy town.

I am ready to put up my Christmas Decorations! But I won't.

Laine is out of her boot!! Yipee!!

Last weekend the kids went to Abilene and we went to see three (3) movies! It was heavenly!

Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 opens this week. That is all I have to say about that you guys know that makes my month.

This app has no spell check that I am aware of soooo...